Is it possible to recover from a major life disaster? No. Easy answer - Huge disaster. Life is not the same and never will be. The World has catastrophic disasters. Some natural disasters, such as earthquakes, tsunamis, hurricanes, tornadoes, floods, fire. Man made disasters occur, but are deliberate and thought-out. Such as wars, revolutions, crime - in the form of terrorism, mass shootings (i.e. school shootings, drug cartels, etc...), purposely hurting another human being....
Natural disasters are comprehensible, explainable, and understood. Sometimes even expected. The inner self is not affected in the same way as when a deliberate attempt to hurt another person. Betrayal by another person is so incomprehensible and has a multiplier effect. A man gives, supports, loves, cherishes a women. Sharing their lives together is living and is reason to live. Suddenly, this man discovers her betrayal. How can a woman shatter a man to almost certain death.
This tends to be more difficult from a man's perspective. Society somehow thinks it is 'normal' or 'common' for infidelity. Particularly when a man emotionally hurts a women. Still not knowing if I'll live or die, the realization of a girl emotionally 'killing' a guy through the act of betrayal is not as accepted in society. Men, we are strong, I can take it, I can hide it. It's socially unacceptable for a man to show emotion. It makes a man appear weak. This actually makes life, living, emotionally and physically more difficult.
The built up expectation of man's strength is tarnished if you show the hurt contained inside you. Actually, there is nothing inside. Empty from what has been taken from me. Emotions are not allowed - we must hide them. Very soon, hiding places are gone and a man can breakdown. The breakdown is more devastation. The natural thought comes. What did I do wrong? I must have done something wrong. But I do not know what it could be. I've shared our lives, supported, loved, listened, and more. Why does a loved one intentionally hurt a man?
I know, ramble, ramble, ramble.... My mind is cluttered. Thoughts are not coming out in an orderly manner. My live has changed forever. The unimaginable has happened. I don't know what is next....
Conforming to society's expectations and traditional values appears to be absent from the world now. Must assess values and give it more thought. We all should. Hey, I'm just one guy with a broken soul, heart, emotions, feelings and numb inside. When will the pain end.....?
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