Where is the light?

I have died I cannot see. there is no light. The light can throw one off. Seeing the light is having hope. Darkness covers all.  No hope, no dreams, no direction, no fun. this is not living. life was bright and a lot in life would be fun.  The decisions have consequence. what is the right answer. there is no right answer

I was full of hope.  Where did my energy go?  it is on nowhere to be found.  If I know what it’s like to die inside.  Complete numb inside, there was nothing to live for. If I feel nothing on the inside. I am numb and the inside, I cannot think,  cannot concentrate, cannot read. I have no emotion. I have a hollow body.  My body is a container. the container of biology.  Home to nerves, veins, bones, muscles.  That is all of me. No life, just biology jumbled together.

I died of long time ago.  Something kept me going. I don’t know what.  Can I recover?  I believe that it’s impossible.  I’m looking at a hollow body with none of the former ambition and motivation. I once had - it used to be me and inside me.  But where do they go.  It was taken from me.  It will not come back.